It was a grey and silent day where I am.

A quiet work environment,

with clouds that seemed

to touch the ground.

I felt the weight of silence on my soul today.

The other shoe so close to dropping

for one,

two,

several people.

Beyond my reach and out of my control.

I know enough to know what’s coming,

but remained puzzled

everyday

by the things I can not change,

in a constant loop of “serenity now!”

that can’t be unwound.

The cold in the air chills my feet,

makes me long for the snuggles

that wait for me at home

Enough that I came home early

with a sigh of relief

with no idea if that darn gopher saw his shadow or not,

to watch the my little pony movie with my little loves.

The silence overflowed with their happy sounds as I ate popcorn,

while the weight of sadness was replaced by the weight of my youngest

curled up on my stomach.

The warmth inside

melting the ice of my feet at last.