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The beast in the cage
The pet of dread is back, Seemingly out of nowhere, But I always know it lurks, waiting for its moment It pounces suddenly, out of a good day, Creeping inside and twisting, Making doubts rise up again Did I do the right thing? Was something overlooked? My concience berates me, continually uncertain. My memories…
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Anticipation
Once again I’m in the storm before the calm, waiting for things to move onwards. I’m stuck in the middle where I anticipate big things. I’m at the end of editing for my first book baby, eager to polish it until it shines and send it out into the world to sink or swim. I’m…
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Harvest
Yellowed leaves crumbling, dry cracked ground packed tightly. Weeds choke out the smaller plants, but the hardy push through, ignoring their competition. The true bounty hides underneath, waiting for the harvest to elevate it to glory, Roots stretched deep, absorbing life from below. Beets, carrots, and potatoes, hidden within the ground, nourishing and silent. Worth…
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The rules
Kids are amazing creatures, full of so many questions and emotions, living their lives with such honesty, before we teach them otherwise. My little boy is a feral being, who laughs deeply and screams like a panther when cornered. He throws bricks when full of rage, and gives the biggest and most honest hugs with…
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September Long
September long weekend, summer days slipping away. Children laughing in the sun, priceless golden heads shining. I feel a chill descend as the sun slips away, knowing that it’s only days until frost fills the morning air. Family surrounding us, good food, good company, good conversation. Clouds hide the sun and my smile Soon they…
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Sugar free September
I haven’t slept well this week. I’ve got too much going on upstairs. I’m not sure if a squirrel got into to my cerebral cortex, but it’s been non-stop chatter in there for days now. Between family, opening a new business, and trying to be creative while still meeting all my obligations, it’s no wonder…
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Fall memories
September is here. Today I saw pumpkin spice lattes for sale again, a sure sign that fall is coming. I walked out of work to step on the familiar crunch of yellowed leaves, curled and wrinkled on the sidewalk, and felt a strange happiness suffuse my soul. I texted my mother, and our conversation turned…
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August 31st
Another milestone, left behind in my rear view mirror. I watched as it passed without fanfare or excitement, Another day in a string of days, the last day of another month. I dressed with the weight of change on my shoulders, pressing down slightly, asking if I knew what I was doing. I brushed it…
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The struggle
Sometimes I feel the urge to scream as long and loud as I can, rail against the wind, howling my anger against man. It bubbles out, as hot as pitch, and as dark as night, the twisting and growling as it leaves with a fight. When things become too much, and I need a break…
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Guardians
Tonight I watched Guardians of the Galaxy- volume 2. Well, tonight I finished it at least. We usually start a movie one night and have to finish it over the course of a few nights since having kids. Either we’re too tired, or it’s past our self- imposed 9 pm bedtime and we know we’ll…