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Monday night review
Another Monday, come and gone. I’m sitting in a stupor on the couch, arm wrapped around a soft little boy, lap full of black cat. For a brief moment, I feel calm, the wind that howls from the constant storm inside abated. I feel grateful for how warm and happy I am, with my loyal…
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Living the dream
Excitement bubbled under the surface all day. Knowing that tomorrow I’ve achieved something I never thought I would has given me such an incredible feeling, it was all I could do not to succumb to a state of anxiety and joy and just sit in a corner and wait. I continued with my everyday life…
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The cold
Oh man. Rhinovirus is not just a funny sounding disease. At least, I assume that’s what I have right now, based on the exceptional quality of the congestion and scratchy throat that I’m experiencing. Luckily, it was a light day. My six year old diminutive doppelgänger had her follow up with the ENT, and managed…
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To give thanks
Fall and thanksgiving are irrevocably connected to me. Today, I fulfilled a long held need that I didn’t have just a few years ago. It’s been building this year though, a sense of nostalgia and separation, feeling sometimes as though I am leading my life on a superficial plane, Working, sleeping, going through the motions, …
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Thanksgiving
This weekend is one of remembrance and family for me. For many people in North America and around the world, it also leads into the holiday season in the Christian world. As the leaves turn shades of gold and russet, the weather chills and the smell of decaying leaves and dirt surrounds me. I picked the…
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Golden
I feel so complete today. Overwhelmed with joy, Full of gratitude. The circle of life In the world around me. The sun on golden trees, Scent of fall in the air My child’s soft curls On my shoulder, Warm in the late afternoon. My love beside me, As perfect as at the beginning. My creation…
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Launch
Seventeen days left. I haven’t slept well in over a week, and I realize now, a little too late, that I should not be doing a preorder for my own sanity. My first launch. It feels a little like waiting to see my baby for the first time. What will they be like? Will they…
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Fast forward
Today I was struck by how focused I’ve been this month. I’ve had a million things happening and I was scattered to the four winds, but I had the last few days where things seemed to Pause And I realized how much I’ve gotten done while feeling completely overwhelmed, sinking with my obligations. Today my…
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The Centre of the Universe
I watch my little one, So sure of his importance, He’s genuinely confused when he doesn’t get his way, Disbelief filling his face when he hears a solid no. My little planet, thinking he’s a sun, everything should revolve around him. He’s starting to realize life isn’t what he thinks it should be, a hard…
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Age is irrelevant
So tired. It’s only nine o’clock, but the week has been long. In between meetings and obligations, I’m not sure how I did it all. Saturday night now, and I want to sleep after the day, week, month I’ve had. I remember when nine was when you started getting ready to go out on Saturday, as…