Happy Easter Fools day!

Such a confusing holiday this year, for adults and parents and children alike.

So many jokes as always.

It took me back to my childhood.

I remember an Easter that fell before April fools day another year, many years ago.

I remember painstakingly eating all of my foil eggs and rewrapping them and regifting them to my grandmother.

It was the first year I’d ever fooled anyone, and it was the first time I felt bad tricking someone.

It may have been the same year I switched the sugar and salt, and I still remember the look on my little brothers face at that first bite of cereal, as though he’d eaten something toxic.

I felt no pleasure in the look on the faces of people I loved.

A look of betrayal and disappointment.

I imagine that look every time I think about telling a lie.

I think about that look when I consider letting someone down,

Every time I consider not living up to my obligations and being selfish.

So while Easter is a time of renewal and resurrection, this year it is also a time when I remember what the face of betrayal looks like, and know that if I go the rest of my life and never see that look again, I will have lived an amazing life.

And I haven’t tried to April fool anyone since then.