Category: Thoughts on life and death

  • Roots

    Some days I think about simplifying life. Cutting back to the bare minimum, scaling back and living closer to the land.  I remember growing up miles from the nearest town, isolated by fields of wheat from civilization It was a different time, simpler in so many ways. We had clocks but they felt less controlling…

  • Gray

    The sky is in full shades of cloud as I hear my youngest cry. The day has started out in shades of winter, not the end of April that it is supposed to be. As I look out into the dreary day though, my head keeps repeating the hallelujah song. Today I’ve woken with a…

  • Zip a dee do dah

    Some times I just can’t catch my breath. The entire day rolls by without stopping for pictures, and I’m stuck standing at the end of the caravan, wondering why I’m being left in the dust. I feel sometimes I disappear into the roles I play, whatever they may be to those in my life. Mommy,…

  • The road home

    I drive a lot for work, but I love being in my car. I like being alone, the gentle vibration of the road soothing me, Like the purr of a cat Together my car Misha and I have explored the roads near my house, and watched birds of prey soar by. Prairie dogs race madly…

  • Harmony

    I watch as they play together, close in age and interests, not yet separated by school or friends. They race at each other on their bikes, veering before the crash and laughing hysterically each time before winding up to do it again. For a moment I go back to my childhood, days of green and…

  • Spike

    Those of you who know me may know I have a habit of watching TV on the treadmill. Given that I like to run three to five times per week and live in a climate with snow or crappy weather 8 months of the year, this works out to a fair amount of TV. I’ve mentioned that…

  • The realization 

    I entered the room, braced for the worst but as always not ready for what I saw in front of me.  She was thinner, paler, and the jaunty turban on her head stuck out in hideous cheerfulness over sad eyes.  It had been a few months since the last time I’d seen her, only a…

  • Body and Soul

    I’ve had a little time to think about what health means to me,  spending my entire day hip deep trying to stay above the water line when it comes to treading through other peoples issues. I feel that physical health receives so much focus in our society. Our health system has specialists and sub specialists galore. One who…

  • The busy day

    Ever have days where you feel so breathless from the list in your mind you just stop and chuckle helplessly?  Sometimes I feel like I’m on a merry go round that isn’t very merry and is spinning so fast my face is doing that thing when your gums flap away from your teeth. It’s funny…

  • Opaque

    I’ve always had a fascination for eyes, as far back as I can remember to me, they were so beautiful and unique, showing the individuality of a face, even between siblings who were very similar appearing. I remember the older people saying “the eyes are the windows to the soul” and didn’t really understand why…