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Fork in the road
I’ve been on the phone a lot this week, dealing with uncertainty. We have the illusion of control in life, easily shattered by the questions you can’t answer, or the things you can’t control. I don’t play God, I play Russian roulette. Is this the right choice? I ask myself this question multiple times every…
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Commit
Some words feel like home, tucked into your heart, the way you see the world, the way it falls apart. I’ve lived a few years now, And I’ve learned a thing or two, But the word commit keeps finding me, Making me come through I was raised to stay the course, Don’t give in, Never…
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Paper
Pressed sheets of tree, purpose aplenty. My day was full of paper in all its incarnations. Paper of news, work, and page after page of addresses and notifications as I attempt to notify the world of my new endeavour in the appropriate, college sanctioned way. But after spending nine hours on paper for work purposes,…
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The circle
It continues eternally, smooth and perfect, a loop unending We struggle to understand it from the moment of our arrival, stunned and blinded by the light of the world Continually striving, climbing, growing and changing, Becoming, unceasing, perpetual in the nature of the transformation we undertake. Until the last minute, we are in a constant…
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Back to midlife
So I spent another day hobbling around. On the upside, I discovered stronger leg and butt muscles than I realized I had, as I stood and sat completely without using my back muscles. Once again, everyone noticed and told me I should be at home. I agreed, but when I said work was more relaxing…
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When people notice
Today was a struggle, but at the end of it, I feel as though the world is a better place then yesterday. It started yesterday when my back decided to turn one hundred, leaving me lying on the floor by the door unable to move. I was laughing and crying, as my husband threatened me…
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Father’s Day
Today is Father’s Day. A day when we celebrate our Dads, give them ties and keychains and coffee mugs or other tchotchkes made in school with patient teachers. A day that brings back great memories from childhood. My father showing me how to ride the little red bmx, knees above the handle bars with his…
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Backyard lessons
I watched them play today, Out in the backyard surrounded by nature. The oldest becoming a leader, showing her little brother what to do, The middle forging her own path through forbidden territory, bold and willing to risk the consequences to do things her way The youngest trusting he wouldn’t be led astray, looking up…
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Creation
I think we all want to make our mark on the world. For some people, it’s about accomplishing grand things, making a lot of money, having huge buildings with their names on them Achievement means being important and recognized, famous for something. Some people will go to any lengths to do this. They’ll sell their…
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Thursdays child
Today was on of those days where I looked at the schedule and sighed. It was a full day, with complicated patients and multiple issues. I dreaded going in. I started it running behind, having slept through my alarm and only getting one cup of coffee in before my little howler monkey joined me, 530…